Poems

I sit alone every night remembering how I held you tight
I remember everything we do, hoping you remember too
I remember when I asked you out
Hoping you would think about
All the nice things I have done
Letting the right decision come
I waited just a couple days, then you took my breath away
You said yes, I couldn’t believe that you actually accepted me
Even though I’m not really hot
You took me in when other girls would not
I thought my eyes were deceiving me
How could I be going out with a beauty queen
Her eyes of blue her hair of brown the most beautiful thing around
I love you like crazy I hope you can see how much love I have in me
I try my best to make you see that I love you endlessly
Every time you are near me I hope you feel the same love for me
I know I call you every hour of every day just to see if you’re ok
I know I can’t make you love me the same
Just let me love you that way
So beloved dear this poem is true, I’m madly in love with you


The sparkle in your eye,
The warmth of your skin.
Your breath on my neck,
That quivers within.

The touch of your hand,
The smell of your hair.
The kindness in your smile,
That strength in your stare.

Your kiss on my lips,
Your body near mine.
The stroke of your touch,
That feeling inside.

The sound of your voice,
Compassion in your embrace.
The serenity in your stride,
The power in your face.

The calming of your presence,
The beating of your heart.
The promise of tomorrow,
That we may never part.

The beauty of your kiss,
and that magic in your touch.
It is for all these reasons and more,
Why I love you so much.

These are dedicated to my special friend who went through life 'together' for past few months but it's all turned into just a wish...

The Real Deal

I have travelled around places, moving here and there, met many people especially the Baha'i s. KL, Doha, Thailand and now at a pit stop in Kuching. My first thought of coming here was that I am here to rot and just being lazy. I just realized I was wrong. Kuching is a place infested with one of the most amazing youths I ever seen. These are the REAL DEAL! These are the youths that are doing their part in the phrase “Youths Can Move the World". They are the engines of the car in moving. Wonder what they do? You'll see...

Kuching youths are the ones to watch in the future. Their dedication is like no other, more than one's passion for a team he supports. Their love for the Faith is unbelievable, sacrifice and understanding. You may say that you also have that kind character but you are wrong. The Ibans are who I'm talking about. Have you ever hear that I would die in the love of God, Teach for the love of Baha'u'llah? Those are just words pouring out of the mouth. A lot of distractions such as parties, studies, friends, families and other commitments for us other youths The youths here have no need for all that to be living their life. They are prepared to dedicate all the time they can for The Faith. One of the youths here named Pamela who is currently studying accounts at a university, is being considered as one of the most active and dedicated youths in Malaysia. AGM’s here always recommend here for any youth gatherings and organizing events. This is the full use of human resources. She doesn’t have any complains or excuses when it comes to doing something for the Faith especially conducting JY classes, Children Classes, Teachings and even pioneering, They would sacrifice her weekends entirely just to go visit one of the small towns here. The place is called Stutong and is being considered as one of the biggest success from ‘door to door teachings’ in Kuching. Plenty of declarents and most of them are very much active in the Faith though they are the New Believers. This is greatly thanks to her and her youth group. This success has now given them the confidence to spread Baha’u’llah’s teachings to other parts of Sarawak. Even during their holiday break from university, they would spend 24/7 in learing more from the experienced, helping the LSA and continue conducting their JY Classes without failThese youths really amaze me.

These youths deserve the chance to go to the Holy Land to serve and I told them ‘God is proud of you guys’. Their response? ‘Its not enough’

Not to say that the other youths are slacking off but it’s a time when the Word of God needs to be spread to each person we know. These youths should be an inspiration and strive for excellence. Think of what unnecessary distractions are holding each of you back from doing what these young people are doing. What we are doing are just a small part but with a lil more dedication and passion for what we do, we can always do better just like they said.

Suprise birthday celebration for Patricia ( in brown) with the rest of the gang. Pamela is in black & purple shirt. :P

Genting!

The reunion is gonna be a success!! Can't wait!!! Hope this helps to ease my pain of Lucky's loss....

Lucky

I consider this my weakest part of me.

On the 16th December 2009, this day shall be remembered as the passing of a great animal. This is my second post about her. You can see how great she is to me in my second post when I started blogging. Not only I love her so much but she has touched the hearts of everyone she met. She melts in your eyes faster than ice, melts the heart like ice-cream and attraction higher than what a magnet could do. Lucky, our home pet was received with open arms into our family and she immediately became a part of our family. Our 5th member and will always be considered our best entertainer. I loved her like no one else. My father even said that she is like an angel sent to us by God.

What did she do that made her special? She didn't have to do stunts or tricks to show that. She was always acting herself, just like any other dog. She eats, sleep, trots around just like any other dog would do. But what really stood out to me was her 'teachings'. My family wasn't very close and had its shaky moments. Then came the idea of adopting a dog thanks to my dad. My mom didnt like the idea and even tried to talk us out of it. She came along and did wonders to us. Other families could see the effect of her arrival. Brought us closer and learned a lot. Forgiveness for example. How? Whenever she made a mistake like running out of the compound, chasing cats around etc, she would realise it and make her apologetic face expression and reaching out her paw asking for forgiveness. How could we not forgive her when anyone look into her eyes and melts the heart...

I can't have a better dog than Lucky. During my Finals, I was very stressed out at times but whenever I reach home from an exam, the sight of her brings the broadest of smiles to my face. Disappointment, stress, tiredness all release away within a sec. Relief and glad to see her. But now it all ended when I moved back to Malaysia to furthur my studies. Bid her farewell, and promised her that I would one day return to hold her in my arms again. Feelin guilty that I let go all my responsibilities. I loved my them like takin her out for walk, running next to me when she sees me on the run, playin fetch even when she is selfishly not wanting to give back the toy, feedin her at times and too many more things I loved doin with her. Her tail is the significant feature of hers. Though very short, her wagging tail when happiness flows in whenever she sees us. Her ear is the special part of her. Very delicate but beauty like no other. Watching her run at top speed, her ears will be jumping up and down like its wanting to fly...

What did I dop to deserve this? God took MANY things away from me but this is somethin that is makin me very upset with God's action. He took her away from us in the most horrific and tragic way. Imagine her being run over by 2 f###### drivers! At least died of age is understandable but this is unacceptable God. I dont even know wether I can trust you anymore. Anytime you could just take away anything I love. Life's never fair but this has gone tooo far. We have feelings you know...How much heartbrake my family is goin through. This cut is too deep for me to patch it back up.

F### My Life

Until justice is brought to these two drivers, my guilt will never leave me. These drivers don't belong in jail, they belong to hell for murdering a member of my family. Go To Hell assholes! Stay there and die there!!!

I Love You Very Much Lucky and I hope you're happy in heaven. I miss you so much

Tears rolling down my cheeks during the whole time writing this post means that my love is too strong. Goodbye angel...

Mémoires

Yesterday I attended my little cousins Kindergarten concert. Watching all the little tots really captured my heart suprisingly. Though I'm 17, I was actually enjoying the show by the young toddlers. :D

Back in my days, kindergarten life was the best. Nothing to worry about, no pressure from parents do complete every homework, always take seriously because you're a kid and many other 'privileges'. During those 2 years, I learnt the basics of swimming, ABC, 123's, acting and I was quite the mischievous one too. Hehehe. Never bullied, pushed-around or whatsoever.

Moving on to Primary Schooling. Considered to be my climb up the mountain. Nightmare years, sobbing in the room a lot and many other horrid stuff that I wouldn't want to remember... Standard One was like a mini roller coaster ride. Considered an outsider in the school bus, Not a person I knew in the school. It was like a whole new dimension or world. Years came by and I managed to have a couple of good friends. Yang Yenn, Yang Yik, Jia Jun and Re On. The 5 of us always stick around for each other and hangout togteher a lot. Do every project as a team. Manage to achieve a lot with the help of each other. All good things must come to an end and by the end of standard 6, it was time for goodbyes. It was hard for us 5 especially as each of us are going our seperate ways to different schools. But promised to meet up once again...

Secondary kicked off okay, well, not entirely. I switched schools after just 4 days in my original school which is situated quite far away from my home. Switched to a nearby school and I never regretted my decision. This school taught me a lot more than just education and discipline. There I started off my Taekwondo career thanks to Wei Hoa for introducing me to the unique sport, learnt how much friendship meant, my first girlfriend and most important; how much life meant to me. Though I still had the 'glaring' eyes from other students, I blended in quick in it was soon that I was like one of them. I participated in marathons, sports day just like evryone else. I did nothing to be special. I could remember my former afternoon principle treated me like I was his son! lol

Till the day I left Malaysia, I cherished every single moment of my schooling life cause I knew it will never be the same in Qatar and boy! I was right...

My last reunion with standard 6 in Sunway Pyramid
P.S note: Please come for the reunion guys!!! =D

Birthdayy Girl

Happyy Belated Birthday to Agnes!!! This crazy woman finally turns 18!!! lol. can drive yet ah? :D
Im sure Juin did a awesome job in her suprise b'day partay for you!! Have a Blast!

Week of non-stop fun!!! :D

The week of my birthday is officially the best week I ever had in my life. Why? Long story but ready to tell the world ;)

It all started on the 21st September with me having a gathering with most of my closest yoots in Qatar as my farewell party. It was the day we said goodbyes and I was a lil emotional too! :D
Then on the 23rd night, I left The Middle East country to go HOME! Reached in the afternoon and knocked myself out when reached my cousins home. The next day was considered to my biggest day according to Juinnie. Left for the train station in the morning and reached Subang early afternoon. Picked up by Juinnie and her college mate, Dorothy.

Went to have a drink and got a call from Linda telling me to stall Juin till around 12:30. I knew what was coming but luckily Juin doesnt! :D We went for a drink for a short break, then Linda called us to go up to Juin's locker. So, we dragged her along and when we reached the floor, SUPRISE!!! Even I was quite suprised! :) Juin opened her locker and she jumped around looking at the gift and when she turned around she was even more stunned. A birthday cake with her favourite Disney character from Monsters vs Aliens, BOB!!! A few seconds later, a room burst open and everyone started singing Happy Birthday. All her college mates were there and the cake was very creamy.... I was really happy for her cos it took us more than a week to get this plan executed! =) After the cake smearing n photo sessions, Shum dropped me off at Juin's place to relax while Juin went to somewhere to sort out some 'stuff'. Couldnt sleep so Agnes asked me out for lunch. Didn't hesitate and went to watch her eat. Later, tagged along with her to help her find a dress to buy for Juinnie. Tak jadi cos I had to run home as Juin did not have the key and she was waiting in front of the house door. Haha

Evening came and being told to get ready and SHIT! I did not have a black shirt! Supposed to have one but did not bring it! No choice but to wear a blue one... Went to Taylors then a ride to Amir's place to join the rest of the gang who are coming along. It was then I realised my first suprise. I WAS GOING TO BLACK EYED PEAS CONCERT!!!! I was technically suprised! :D
I'll let the pics do the talking from here.
Benny, Linda, Juinnie & Me
Amir, Faris, Juinnie, Linda, Benny, Dorothy, Shum & Me
One of my lenses came out from my glasses but later managed to fix it. LOL
BEP getting the party started!!!!! =D
The stereo dancers. Cool! :)
The four. We were quite close! ;)
Fergie with solo 'Big Girls Don't Cry'. She was HOT!!!
The ending. My fav shot of the four. =)
Finished at midnight. The perfect way to usher in my 17th Birthday. Fireworks, BEP, coolest friends around and many more to come.
At the mamak. Very hungry, thirsty and quite tired.
My second suprise is at Amir's apartment and what they did was......
First attempt, failed. Try again...
Second and......
Whooosh!!! They finally got me thrown into the pool. Security guard came up to us to shoo us away! LOL
The little birthday cake for me. Thanks Guys!!!

It was the perfect day for me except that my glasses had issues.lol. I would love to thank Juin for making it a day to remember for the rest of my life. Credits to her for making it a real suprise for me. Would someday repay you for what you did. You accept cash? ;P
Also, Benny, Shum, Linda, Dorothy, Faris and Amir. Thanks so much fro celebrating my 'day with me!!! You guys are AWESOME!!!!! =D