My phone seems so empty lately. So dead and even though I keep checking for messages, I dont find many. Although Eqa (my new closest friend) is close to me, she has her own things to do most of the time. Twittering with her friends and hanging out with them. I dont blame her and I have no right to do anything to her. Plus, the only time we are able to meet is after classes or during lunch... Seeing her makes me happy always but the feelings inside me arent showing the truth at times...
I still miss her. I miss Khimmy a lot. Honestly, I read her blog like everyday and seeing her being close to someone makes me feel like crap. How much I hurt her and how we ended is something I never wanted to do. I am not sure of myself whether I still want her in my life again. Its tough. I thought that if I remain single for a couple of months and I still want her, I pray that she accepts me and forgive me for whatever wrong I did. She's still special. I just can't bare to see her with another guy. Somehow it puts a dagger through my heart for me to rot... Maybe in time I'll make it through...
Its been nearly 2 weeks since we seperated. I'm currently single and very not used to it. I dont have anyone whom I can share everything yet. I tell Eqa a lot of things but she can be 'unresponsive' at times. :P
Drama Club have been plenty of practices lately since the day of us performing is in like 3 weeks. It is energy draining. Dance moves, guitar practice and practicing our lines and stage coordination. Not much breaks cos I have studies to focus on as well cos I have EMA test this Saturday then Finals 2 weeks later..... I am screwed!!!
Peace out and take care world...
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